This Is My Suicide Letter, The Conclusion

INT. MICAH’S BED ROOM - NIGHT
Micah (19) lies on the bed sleeping as the camera speeds up the shot showing Micah sleeping, changing positions and night and day flashing through the window next to him. Every few shots there is Cold standing in different places in the room. The scene culminates to Cold sitting on the side of Micah’s bed running his fingers through Micah’s hair as Micah shivers and cries in his sleep, retching at the hands of the evil one.
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EXT. TRAIN TRACKS - NIGHT
Micah (19) walks down the tracks throwing stones at the ground as he walks. He is talking to himself.
MICAH
This is real. Come on Micah, Just breathe.
Micah lights a cigarette and continues walking down the tracks.
EXT. BASEBALL FIELD - DAY
He flashes to memory himself at 5 swinging and hitting a baseball off the tee into the infield, as the shortstop fields it and beats him to the bag, then flashes to the coach and him.
MICAH 7
(Wincing in pain and stuttering) I have diarrhea. (All the kids laugh at him.
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INT. CITY STREET - DAY
The old man and woman are on the porch. The woman has died and the man is holding her in his arms and weeping to the air as he cradles her dead body.
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EXT. JIM COURD’S HOUSE - NIGHT
The memory flashes to Micah seeing his dad for the first time, then to the gun as it unloads bullets into Jim’s body, then flashes to the rose dropping onto Micah’s body.
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EXT. OUTSIDE THE BAR - NIGHT
The flashback ends with Micah looking back in slow motion to Ellis who is waving him back, Micah stares then turns and walks away from him. The camera then cuts to Micah’s suicide letter dropping to the bed.
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INT. MAXINE’S HOUSE - NIGHT
Maxine is lying on the couch watching TV
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EXT. HORSE ISLAND - NIGHT
Ellis and Ollie are sitting fishing on Horse Island without Micah, silently sitting.
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EXT. JIM COURD’S HOUSE - NIGHT
Jim Courd is sitting in his family room with his wife, laughing at as they play a board game.
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INT. LIQUOR STORE - NIGHT
The pretty blonde girl is working at the liquor store giving change to a patron buying a bottle of Jack Daniels. She smiles warmly at the man as he walks out the door.
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INT. OLD MAN’S BEDROOM - NIGHT
The old man is sleeping as the camera shows his face on the pillow and a picture of his wife lying on her pillow next to him.
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EXT. TRAIN TRACKS - NIGHT
Micah stops walking in the middle of no where and lies down on the train tracks, putting his head on one of the rails as a headrest. He lights a cigarette and looks to his left where Cold had been, but is now gone. Micah is alone now. A tear rolls down his face as he is shaking in fear, and cold, his hand trembles as he puts the cigarette to his lips. The camera moves into Micah’s eyes again for his thoughts.
EXT. MICAH’S BACK YARD - DAY
Micah (12) throws the football up into the air and runs underneath it to catch it falling onto the ground as if he had been tackled in the end zone, he gets up and jumps up and down in victory and spikes the ball to the ground.
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INT. ELLIS’ CAR - DAY
Micah (19) peers in through the window of a child sitting crying in the backseat of his parents car as the two parents fight. Micah looks intently at the boy.
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EXT. OVERPASS BRIDGE - NIGHT
Micah (7) Micah is back in his Superman pajamas staring over the side of the overpass bridge at the traffic driving below him, he looks over and there is Cold laughing at him.
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EXT. MICAH’S DRIVEWAY - DAY
Micah (9) is staring at the tire tracks in the driveway and looking over his shoulder to his mother who also stares at the driveway.
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INT. CAMPER - DAY
Micah (age 5) and Mathew sit facing each other rocking simultaneously toward each other acting as if they are going to bump heads only to move in a chicken like manner to the side alternating sides with every turn.
MICAH
You ever think about your dad?
MATHEW
All the time, I asked mom about him, she got kinda mad, so I don’t talk about it. Try not to think about it. It won’t help anything.
MICAH
But still, it would be nice to see him.
MATHEW
Yeah, my dad was around before he left, makes it kinda worse to know him then lose him.
MICAH
Yeah.
Micah leans back and starts making shadow puppets on the ceiling.
MICAH
Look, Richard Nixon.
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EXT. TRAIN TRACKS - NIGHT
Micah (19) is smoking and lying on the tracks with tears streaming down his face as he turns his head to the right and sees a train approaching very quickly.
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INT. MICAH’S ROOM - NIGHT
Ellis walks into Micah’s room and goes to his bed and picks up the suicide note and starts to read it.
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INT. OLLIE’S VAN - NIGHT
Ollie is driving away from Micah’s house and he gets a puzzled, and alarmed look on his face, and turns the car heading for the tracks.
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INT. MICAH’S BED ROOM - NIGHT
Ellis throws down the notebook and runs to the door and exits to the outside, only to stand in helplessness outside the door, looking at Micah’s car and out into the distance.
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EXT. CITY STREET - NIGHT
Ellis begins walking down the street back to the Dive bar, where his band is playing still without him or Micah. Jimmy is walking out of the club with Lisa.
ELLIS
Jimmy, you see Micah?
JIMMY
No, he hasn’t been back here.
ELLIS
Alright.
Ellis goes back to the door and exits.
EXT. TRAIN TRACKS - NIGHT
Ollie gets out of his car and starts running down the tracks as fast as he can.
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EXT. TRAIN TRACKS - NIGHT
Micah is staring at the train in the distance as it quickly approaches. He is still thinking of different times in his life.
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INT. PLAYGROUND - DAY
Micah (12) swings the bat and hits the bully in the head with it watching him crumble to the ground.
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INT. ELLIS’S ROOM - DAY
Ellis lights Micah’s armpit on fire as he sleeps sending Micah into a panic to put it out.
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EXT. MICAH’S CAR - DAY
Micah and Cameron are fighting as she grabs her clothes and shoves them into the suitcase in the trunk and grabs the suitcase and walks away.
EXT. TRAIN TRACKS - NIGHT
Micah sees the train approaching very close to him, about 20 feet as the camera flashes from Micah’s face to the train approaching to Ollie running down the tracks and Ellis weeping violently outside the bar. The scene flashes to Micah’s face that has blood on it and to his eyes that are now closed.
MICAH
(Whimpers) Hear me.
FADE TO BLACK.
EXT. POWER LINES - DAY
The scene shows a flock of birds perched next to the shoes on the power line, the birds suddenly fly away.
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EXT. OVERPASS BRIDGE - NIGHT
Micah (7) is looking over the edge of the overpass and then back at Cold who is laughing at him. Micah looks back at the freeway, then back at Cold and he smiles at Cold which causes Colds face to change to bewilderment. Micah then steps up onto the railing and jumps head first in a swan dive off the bridge leaving Cold by himself, smiling.
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EXT. TRAIN TRACKS - NIGHT
Micah lies there motionless with his eyes closed for a few moments, blood smeared on his face. Micah opens his eyes and sees the train off in the distance about 20 feet away from him rolling by rapidly. He then looks to Ollie who is lying on top of him holding his hand in pain. Micah is puzzled as he tries to make sense of the situation.
MICAH
How did you?
Micah passes out.
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INT. MICAH’S BED ROOM - NIGHT
Micah is writing in his suicide letter, sitting on the floor leaning against the bed.
MICAH
(Narrated) Ever wondered what your last couple minutes of life would be like? I have wondered this forever, now I know.
Micah sits on the floor of his bedroom just thinking and staring at the wall trying to figure things out.
INT. MICAH’S BATHROOM - NIGHT
He gets up and runs the bath water and grabs a razor blade out of the medicine cabinet and looks into the mirror at his reflection.
MICAH
(Narrating) My uncle Dink used to play with trains before he died. He had his whole basement turned into one big toy train track, and he would sit down there for hours just watching the train travel all around the walls through the trees and then back again. I guess it brought him comfort because you can always count on trains. Maybe it wasn’t the train, that failed me. I had hoped to someday make a hero out of those tracks, to someday kill the clown, and save the world from its ugliness. See the myth is that we are all innocent or even more that any one of us is innocent, you are all on these tracks heading the same direction right here with me. I pass by a group of teenage kids talking in the dark in their back yards, I see priests and pastors praying for themselves, I see an ambulance that is heading my direction on its way to pick up a dead kid, but most of all I see a five year old boy playing catch with himself in the front yard, throwing up the ball and running under it for a touchdown catch and all the glory of celebrating alone, that kid has no idea, that kid is golden, that kid is stupid, that kid loves his mother, he says he hates his brother, but really only says that to his friends to be cool, he has a stuttering problem, that kid is growing up.

Micah sits on the side of the tub staring at the blade as it shines and reflects the light in the room. The bath is full, so Micah gets into the water with his pants still on and lays back into the water.
MICAH
God if you have something to say to me, say it.
Micah closes his eyes and puts the blade to his neck.
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EXT. THE PARK - DAY
This is a vision. It is a beautiful day and Micah is sitting, older now on the grass as a little boy (Micah 3) runs around him laughing in circles. He glances over to his side and sees, the pretty blonde next to him, with the sun shining off her golden hair, she is smiling at him and leans over and kisses him.
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INT. MAXINE’S HOUSE - DAY
Micah (3) is being held by his mother in her arms and being rocked, the scene switches back and forth to him now and him then both being held in his mothers arms, rocking him back and forth as he weeps.
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INT. CHRIS’ ROOM - DAY
The scene shows the rope hanging on the ceiling fan of Chris’ bedroom as Chris walks away from it, grazing Micah’s hand as he walks by smiling at Micah. Micah’s gaze follows him right through the door as he dissolves before his eyes.
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EXT. CITY STREET - NIGHT
The vision goes to the bell tower again as it shows the cross on the church.
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INT. MICAH’S ROOM - NIGHT
Cold and Micah are in his room and Micah is bent over weeping on the ground as Cold stares at him as if he is giving up. Cold is now walking with a cane, and has gobs of blood dripping from his face, his eyes are cut and he looks like he has just been beaten up. Micah looks up at Cold with tears in his eyes, and Cold shoots him a knowing look and a nod and walks through the wall of his room and out of his life. Micah then lifts his head up to the sky and weeps uncontrollably and falls over in weakness.
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INT. BATHROOM - NIGHT
The camera focuses on the blade of the razor as it falls to the ground out of Micah’s hand to the ground clean of any blood.
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